Birthday thought

Yes, Today I am celebrating my birthday. 54 years of roller coaster ride.

I received numerous messages of wishes from friends and am very happy that lot of people love me and following message from a team I had never interacted before, kindled my thought.

“May God Gives you a long, healthy and self-satisfying life ahead.

May all your unfulfilled desires come true on your special day.

Wishing you a very glassful and joyous Birthday.”

Beautiful, meaningful, thought provoking message.  I was just pondering. I have completed 54 years. How I have spent the time? There were sweet memories, bitter feelings, success, Failure, love, hatred, anger, peace, abundance, poverty, cursing, and prayer.

But all that is the matter of the past and today none of that is my part. Everything has passed on. There was a time of lacs and lacs of earning in markets, but shared nothing with others. There was a time; I had no means to buy a bun, no bus fare for commuting to office.  No  help came from any dear,near, of course, I never asked. Help was trickling from those who were also sailing in the same boat, earning hardly enough to make the ends meet. They loved me, respected me. Why? I do not know. They say respect me because , I am intelligent , I am able , I am kind , understanding . May be.

I was questioning  myself why this happened to me?  I never harmed any body , though might not have done a great deal of service to the society.  Some of them consoled me it is all movement of planets, shaneeswara is in adverse position, Guru is not favourable, will become all right later. Certain predictions came true, certain not.

Some of them told me you have great combination of stars /yoga , but small problem is, all these planets are tied between Rahu and Ketu, which is delaying the progress. Some said Shaneeswara , lord of your Raashi is “ Manda griha “ hance, you will achieve slowly and whatever you want , you have to earn it by hard work , not by luck.

Life went on . Today all that is memory/history. One of them who had taken me to various holy places and shared with me whatever little he had,  is no more now. I do not know whether he is somewhere around as another life  and he knows I remember him today. Taken some other body, joined the almighty or with body losing electricity, nothing left beyond the dust or  “pancha  bhoothas “ ( Five elements).  we do not know the truth , the reality. They said sages knew truth and they preached truth . But different sages seen and showed differently. One said I am part of God and after death will join back him. To strengthen his hypothesis , he compared life and God to water in the ocean . Ocean is whole . I am taken from that see in a cup. Then I am part of that ocean water, carry same qualities and is whole and when poured back into see will become one with the see. This is the relation between Atman and Paramatman. Then another argued, no , it is arrogance to argue that I am God. He is almighty and I am his creation and serve his purpose.

“Eakam Sat Viprah Bahuda Vadanthi”   Truth is one but speritual seekers/gurus told it in different ways. May be , But what is truth? Whatever I am seeing, I believe as truth. But then what is seeing? It is nothing but one gadget called eye capturing the image and one more gadget called brain interpreting it. Now it all happens through the program in the brain. Changing this program can change entirely what we are seeing.  Through red colour glass, whole world look red. Lord Vishnu blessed Naradha and Tumbura to be seen as donkey and monkey by Ambarisha’s daughter on their request. Vishnu , the program expert could have done it by manipulating the program .

The man , the universe around me what I am seeing and experiencing is purely based on the interpretation done by my brain. That is how  same  incident invokes different responses from different people. Then, whatever we are seeing is real or not . Is it the interpretation of program in our brain? There is nothing outside. Science says energy can neither be created nor destroyed. Does it apply to world also? Whatever, we are seeing at micro level is true at Macro level also. Whatever is happening in an atom is same as is happening in the universe. All made of same ingredients in different combinations. Thus, Rasa Vidya of creating gold was known to ancient scientists, advanced from what current chemists are able to.

This all shows us one thing. This world is a great mystery and beyond the understanding of human beings. Being part of this universe or creation, probably we cannot see what it is? Some sages called it   “Maaya” . Are we the robots created by some aliens , God and we are being played by him as programmed by them? Then can we change the program itself to change our future state of actions, the self learning process. This question was haunting me from my childhood days and I used to ask astrologers “whether Future is pre-determined? If so where is the meaning for papa/punya ( good deed/Bad deed) and putting efforts/struggling . Anything happens is because it is designed by the programmer. Krishna declared in Bhagavat Gita “ Thena vina Thrina ma pi na chalati “  He is the creator, he is the creation. What does it mean? Is it one more juglary of language or one more solace/argument to convince someone to do some action” Forcing Arjuna to Fight.

If we are the programmed robots , probably intelligence is built in the program. Self-learning happens and the learning continuous life after life that is role after role . probably what they called “Manassu’ “ , “ Buddhi”  and  “Samskara”  .  Processing happens in the Manassu , Results is the form of Buddhi and the learning stored( intelligence ) is samskara . This samskara travels with the program from body to body through some medium in the universe.  It is believed and proved that our thoughts are all over and around us in the form of waves and concentrated minds are capable of attracting and capturing related thoughts /knowledge. That is how great inventions have happened and enlightenment happens in sleep and deep meditation.

During my college days, I use to argue in favour of love . I use to argue in favour of lord Shiva over Vishnu , though Vishnu is the one shown as intelligent and was successfully managing all DEVA-DANAVA and other conflicts.  Shiva is symbol of love.  Love or disappointment of not having the love of the loved person ( in whatever form)  or the pain of the loved one hurting us all this I use to argue as enjoyment and not real pain. Love is such a deep feeling /powerful feeling, the pain coming out of it is also enjoyment. That is the reason youngsters do all kind of sacrifices/pain in the pursuit of love. Detachment is best form of happiness which is Vishnu and attachment  brings pain and misery is shiva. Probably my immaturity or for that matter most of us , prefer attachments and pain , else life becomes boring. This is where the concept of Samadhi, Meditation was brought in by vedic scholars and spiritual seekers. Keep your mind in silence. Still your mind. You will be beyond happiness and sorrow. Thoughtless state is real bliss. This is what modern day “Siddhi Samadhi Yoga “ “ Raja Yoga” preaches.

There is and always I also had that this kind of detachment will make us unattached and there will not be feelings like love , life will become boring and also difficult . Family life (selfless, whole hearted support to one another in difficulty) will not be there. Probably, again this is the lack of proper understanding. This is where Karma yoga preaches, keep doing your duty, don’t  worry about results . Beautiful concept.  “ Karmam Kuru “ . Krishna says “ you cannot remain even for a minute without doing Karma” . This you will realize when you look at macro picture, the sun , the planets, the stars , the particles of atom all are  continuously  and constantly working. Never stops. So also micro level , human being , you must keep working.  But , once you are in deep meditation and withdraw your senses from outside world , you have stilled your mind. Probably it is where you get out of this karma cycle and become one with God? Is it possible? NO idea?

The question I asked earlier still remains unanswered? Can we determine our future or rather whether Future is in our hands? As we have no answer to this what is the way for us to be happy? Worry free?   Tell yourself when faced with pain or worry   “Heavens are not going to fall” . “This also passes.”   

When we know that nothing is in our hands, all of us are one day leaving this body and all our actions are guided by some program installed in us by some external force and we are just playing the role assigned to us by this programmer, there is no reason for worry, fear, anger etc., You will always be happy.

What is the place of worship, homa , Guru blessings in the scheme of things that we discussed. How will we justify these? Does this work like a virus guard, fire wall protecting our mind from attack of sorrow, pain from external? Strengthens the mind to keep it cool.  Again could be balancing against other programs. Any way we may not be able to realise the truth. So , whatever way to keep ourselves happy is happiness and achievement.  Probably all these minds are interlinked and as a result programs running in others minds may also have influence on result of our program. This is project of some one. This is where the concept of Master mind preached by modern day psychologists and leadership gurus. Close co-ordination of minds producing enormous positive results.

Let us keep our cool, let us be happy, let us not fight, crib or be unhappy. Sarvey Janah Sukhino Bhavantu. Positive waves from our mind generate positive waves from other minds about whom our mind is generating positive vibes and helps both by uniting the energy.  Let us love the world, let us do our duty. Lets not worry about anything, but work on that. This is the way to real happy living and leaving.

Wish you all the very best and God bless you.

Regards,

Sathya